Wednesday, March 21, 2007
and i dont excatly know how you knew i didnt come school for somedays now, but yes. i didnt.
did you actually bothered to ask the people around you about me?
or did you just notice i wasnt around and so you presumed i wasnt around?
or did you just heard from someone else about me being sick?
i never seem to understand you
or the things you do
up till now, your actions are still a mystery.
and i dont know if by asking
i would clear up my thoughts and wonders?
or would that just be being poking my nose into stuff?
our day is coming,
yes, ninethapril.
and although the thought of us is fresh in my head
and the things we used to do
i hope you havent forgotten.
i cant believe myself .
i was fucking fuckhead last time
and as i look back,
i regret not taking the opportunity as it came
everything opportunity that might have changed our situation now
why was i so scared to make the move?
your reaction was prolly the main reason.
and the biggest regret was seperating.
how could i have based my decisions on what my friends heard and though?
or on how my freidns felt about us?
instead of what you actually said.
and i dont know why this is still bothring me
but i cant brush it off my head.
the toilet. yes
may happened there.
i should have walked out when your answer was a no.
i should have took you in my arms and said its ok.
i should have done so many things
rather than just look up,swalling my tears and follow you out.
rather than just hugging you and saying im sorry too.
rather than being angry at you and saying no doesnt matter.
but how now i wish you'ld give us a chance.
afteryour o's maybe?
you said you wouldnt want me to wait.
honestly, i am waiting.
7 mths and counting.
and although im trying really fucking hard
its just not good enough.
i cannt deny the fact.
i cannt be without you.
maybe its cause i cannot see myself being with another
than you.
this is a place i cannot go anymore.
3.49pm
twenty-three rows behind you
3:33 PM
